weird dream.
Had a weird dream. My white father woke up as usual with his rage and psychotic angst and temper. Usually over something trivial, like how me and my brown mother wanted to go to a new breakfast restaurant. Somehow he turned the positive outing into a negative thing.
So during the dream I felt enormous sympathy for my brown mother. I was ready to walk 2 miles with her to the restaurant. My dreams have this strange quality of making me feel genuine and true joy, like even my nightmares seem pleasant to me. In real life, I would dread walking 2 miles, especially in a polluted city like where I live.
We closed the door and left without him. But instead of walking, we get into the car, go to the restaurant. The city is based on a city in real life, but everything just looks nicer. It looks more natural and less like a concrete jungle. Its as if my dreams show a dimension that could have been, instead of the shitshow I am trapped within currently.
So we are eating breakfast, everything feels corporate, like we are at a business meeting and my mom is an upper middle class executive, instead of the poor person she became in the shitshow that is my reality.
And my black grandmom is there, and they are both talking to me about racism. I start talking about racism, and they tell me that Racism is business, but non-racism is wisdom.
Have cake and eat it too.
I start thinking about what they meant and think I know what they were trying to say. I wake up and start thinking about it. What they mean by wisdom, is just human joy and compassion, having kindness and love for others and not hating people. But it is not actual wisdom, just a poor choice of words, let me explain why.
Watched Deadpool, he said Detroit would have a slow death, of 102 years. So is allowing brown's to perpetually ruin Detroit, actually wisdom? If we define wisdom as a sense of joy and compassion. Where is the wisdom of allowing browns to infest cities, like parasites, and then leave the city ruined before moving to the next host? Where is the joy and compassion in that? Where is also the compassion of letting browns live shitty dilapidated lives, in mediocrity and squalor.
The other thing is, brown memes. Some brown music is pleasant to the ears, but what about the vast quantity of brown music that is death to the ears? And brown culture, which is usually a death of the soul? Brown culture was fine, when they were goofy like in three stooges, and just acted goofy and sincere, they were just nice and timid creatures. It was also fine in Sanford and Sons, as a gag joke, where they acted like mean, but lovable gorillas. But now brown culture is just, too serious. It's modern and takes itself too seriously. The kind, nice, humble brown of the 20's, is now replaced by some egoistic vicious gangster. Not that I have a problem with gangsters, I think cool gangsters like Bonnie and Clyde, and the Joker, are cool people. But what is with this modern brown gangster culture that seems to be dominant in California.
Liberals seem to want to have their cake and eat it too. They want browns to be happy and have good lives as everyone else. So in order for this, they have to believe that browns are no different than whites. But this is the catch 22 of having the cake and eating it too. As browns are treated the same as whites, their cities fall into dilapidation and squalor, and everyone closes their eyes to it, because to admit that browns are different than whites, would ruin the idea of having the cake, and eating it too.
I also noticed this in my attempt to be trans. I wanted to have the cake and eat it too, but I started noticing certain mathematical tendencies. That the more annoying, heartless, cunty, spineless and self-centered degenerates there seemed to be in society, the more transsexuals there seemed to be. Like there was a mathematical trend to it, like masculine men had to go through hardship and the hardship made them more empathetic and better people. But the effeminate, short and weak degenerate men, just had a silver spoon and just instantly became trans once it started being fashionable, but at the downside, they seemed highly self-centered with no sense of empathy, social etiquette or compassion, or had social etiquitte and politeness, but just delusional and religious minded. Almost like it was a videogame bar where their stat meters were inversely proportional to each other, not able to simply max out both meters. Thus I started to rethink how great an all-trans world would be, and I started to really doubt if the world would be that great at all.
So I guess the fitting metaphor of me would be, the scene of Arkham origins where the Joker is walking up a winding spiral, where all around is a carnival full of flames and darkness, and he slowly trods forward as the world is spinning around him, the spiral goes higher and higher but never seems to end.
women
Now, I want to clarfiy, I don't hate all women, and the stuff I say about women doesn't apply to all women, but it does apply to the majority of women.
Its like I see most women as an illusion, a show. When I see women on TV I notice that they have snake-like body mannerisms, and talk in vagueness. This is part of the illusion, the sense of intrigue and mystery, they create an illusion, like a fraud-guru, that they have something deeply profound and deep about their personality. But when you get closer, you see its mostly just smoke and mirrors, illusions that create a 3d effect, like bumpmapping in games.
Women are perpetually and constantly seductive. Feminism is also smoke and mirrors. Last week I saw a woman walking in the cold rain, with no pants on, showing off her legs. And I started to rage, I said I bet she is a feminist, but then I forced the rage out of myself, I said the rage is what they want me to do, they are just playing Emperor Palpatine mindgames. Thats all it is, perpetual illusions and mindgames.
Women go around molesting people and flirting with people by dressing in provocative manner, then claim when a male gets horny and tries to seduce them, that its molestation, that the male is evil and the woman is innocent. Its such a game and only braindead male cucks are the ones who believe the illusion.
the slave nature of men
Furthermore I notice the slave-like nature of man. Many species the males are the worker drones and slaves. But I notice it in the way they talk. For example on the Late show. Even though the host is an "alpha male", you can still detect the inherent slavish nature of men.
You can hear the resentment in their voice. When women speak, they sound like queens or gods of decadence. The man always interrupts them and acts like a smart ass, like he is some prisoner or slave his whole life and has deep resentment for women. Like he is some superhero, tied up by a villian, constantly making smart-ass comments while the villian rambles on in a british manner. When a woman talks about dresses, its like the male is like "I dont give a fuck about dresses why would I? You get to be pretty and loved and I get to be a try-hard slave. I don't give a shit about your dresses nor do I give a shit about your stupid female things like baby-showers, weddings or all that other crap. But thanks for forcing me to talk about that shit in order so I can appear socially acceptable." And the female rambles on like a god of decadence, oblivious to why males deep down would not have any mathematical reason to give a shit about the subject matter she rambles on about.
Personally I have become mostly asexual. Saw a tittie bar one time didn't even feel aroused. So if that's what feminism wanted, they have succeeded, congratulations, nobody objectifies women any more or feels lust at their bodies. Congratulations, you got what you wanted. Now the part about loving women for their personalities and seeing them as people, well I see women as people, but do they see me, a male, as a person, I'm waiting for the day where women view males as people. I sit here twiddling my thumbs waiting for it to happen.
Now, I want to clarfiy, I don't hate all women, and the stuff I say about women doesn't apply to all women, but it does apply to the majority of women.
